i did something i feel horrible for and i've been writhing in guilt as much as im sure he's writhing in grief
i dont intend on vagueposting too much but the point is that i feel horrifically guilty and shameful. i did something i regret with all my being and i hurt someone i cared immensely about, and all i can ponder from the minute i wake up is how that someone may never see me the same again nor forgive me
part of my solution to this all was to stop taking the meds (alike to adderall) that fucked with my hormones and its worked very well against doing what i feel guilty for. whoopee! it has occured to me since, however, that my will to indulge in coding projects entirely depended on those meds, and i have not touched github.dev for a thing since i stopped taking them
i still want to revise this site eventually, i just have to draw up everything and force myself to engage in writing code and markup regardless of my medicinal status
sorry i havent updated in a while (im sure anyone cares LOL), i promise this site will look bigger and better and cooler when i finally commit to rewriting it again
More fleshed-out social panel coming soon.